Balay Burikatan. (First Time)

Weekend. Free time. Gabii sa kangitngit.
Nagtalk sa park. Chika chika – That was it.
A couple of drinks- the foreverr henessy berry.
And i think uban pang ilimnong nakapatipsy.

You’re young and ganahan diay ka moadto didto.
And i was stupid to said earlier nga i’ll go wherever you’ll go.
Wala koi experience sa balay sa mga burikat.
Worse kay hubog akong beauty, ambot nalang, giahak.

Hands all over the place and eyes nga murag FBI.
Nagalihok sa kangitngitan. Nagatotok, walay alibi.
Tulo ka kilometro na guro ang nalakaw sa sulod.
Apan ako sa double deck, didto naghagok.

Batia jud diay if wala ka sa imong kaugalingon.
Kay ana sila magenjoy ka, maamazed, ang mind maopen.
Apan ako wala gyud. Cg lang pangbalibad.
I was not prepared, basin pa nyag magkayamukat.

-babayng pak-an

 

Microactions : Stay away from negativity

Naa sa akong mga micro-actions ang stay away from negativity and always try to smile.

Which i tried jud baya speciallly kanang staying away from negativity. Nakalearn gani ko on how to shut down people while they talk by pretending not hearing anything. Hahahaha. Also I have this one person who is so negative sa life. Breathing rants. Sorry sa akong exaggeration. Pero ana jud sha kay naa jud season sa iyang life nga full na kaayo sha about things nga dili nya macontrol pero ginatry nyag control which always make him berserk: about people. about work and workmates, about family. I still listen sa iyaha. I tried my best to calm him down. I know people needs someone to listen sa ilaha. Dili man necessarily motambag or motubag. Listening is enough… And I did that.

It took me so long nga marealize nga nega jud diay sha nga pagkataw. Pero I didnt shrug him off because… just because i consider him as one of my dearest friends. Naa sha atong naa ko sa top. Naa sha atong naa ko sa akong lowest. I dont know his sincerity but i felt his presence and that is enough. When no one else cared to chat me. When no one else bothered to ask how i feel, He was there. He was there to help.

There was a time i tried to stay low anang magcontact contact ug friends. And he was the only one (i think) nga unang nichat and ask kumusta na daw ko. I was like unsa imong tuyo? And he was like, wala lang nangumusta lang…

Isnt it nice kanang mga friends nimo nga magtalk mo kay wala lang.. dili tungod naai tuyo or naai favor. Pero basin pud bored lang sha or walay kastorya. i dont know sa iyang side. But i appreciate those times. Pero mao sad lagi, maabot dayon mig mga negative topics. And when people drags away happiness sa ilaha, it also drags away happiness sa people around them. And i felt that too.

Murag motaas na ni nga entry, no? and i dont want that, no?. So ako na ning putlon. Karon busy naman siya. And lately wala na pud mi naga chat. I thought pud nga nagachat lang sha if nega sha sa life. pero if happy sha and naa shay uyab or uyabuyab and all things go his way, wala ra pud baya sha nagaparamdam. Which is sabotable ra man.

Pero back to my micro-actions, stay away from negativity. So mao to, if magpalayo ko ug mga nega topics and nega people, less akong stress. Chos.

 

 

when you try to smirk but fail so bad. hahaha