Super Powers

I am happy nga blessed ko with the superpower nga dali ra ka move on. Disclaimer: lahii diay nang move on ug sa magdumot. Example, nagmove on na ko nga dili na ta friends sa fb, pero ayaw expect nga ig kita nato kay motagad ko nimo. ganern. Moving on is accepting that things already happened, but dili meaning ana nga imo pud kalimtan ang mga kasakit, kahiubos ug uban pang kadramahan. Ayaw kalimti ang mga feelings, learn from them. Ayaw ug revenge, it will come naturally.
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Balay Burikatan. (First Time)

Weekend. Free time. Gabii sa kangitngit.
Nagtalk sa park. Chika chika – That was it.
A couple of drinks- the foreverr henessy berry.
And i think uban pang ilimnong nakapatipsy.

You’re young and ganahan diay ka moadto didto.
And i was stupid to said earlier nga i’ll go wherever you’ll go.
Wala koi experience sa balay sa mga burikat.
Worse kay hubog akong beauty, ambot nalang, giahak.

Hands all over the place and eyes nga murag FBI.
Nagalihok sa kangitngitan. Nagatotok, walay alibi.
Tulo ka kilometro na guro ang nalakaw sa sulod.
Apan ako sa double deck, didto naghagok.

Batia jud diay if wala ka sa imong kaugalingon.
Kay ana sila magenjoy ka, maamazed, ang mind maopen.
Apan ako wala gyud. Cg lang pangbalibad.
I was not prepared, basin pa nyag magkayamukat.

-babayng pak-an

 

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Microactions : Stay away from negativity

Naa sa akong mga micro-actions ang stay away from negativity and always try to smile.

Which i tried jud baya speciallly kanang staying away from negativity. Nakalearn gani ko on how to shut down people while they talk by pretending not hearing anything. Hahahaha. Also I have this one person who is so negative sa life. Breathing rants. Sorry sa akong exaggeration. Pero ana jud sha kay naa jud season sa iyang life nga full na kaayo sha about things nga dili nya macontrol pero ginatry nyag control which always make him berserk: about people. about work and workmates, about family. I still listen sa iyaha. I tried my best to calm him down. I know people needs someone to listen sa ilaha. Dili man necessarily motambag or motubag. Listening is enough… And I did that.

It took me so long nga marealize nga nega jud diay sha nga pagkataw. Pero I didnt shrug him off because… just because i consider him as one of my dearest friends. Naa sha atong naa ko sa top. Naa sha atong naa ko sa akong lowest. I dont know his sincerity but i felt his presence and that is enough. When no one else cared to chat me. When no one else bothered to ask how i feel, He was there. He was there to help.

There was a time i tried to stay low anang magcontact contact ug friends. And he was the only one (i think) nga unang nichat and ask kumusta na daw ko. I was like unsa imong tuyo? And he was like, wala lang nangumusta lang…

Isnt it nice kanang mga friends nimo nga magtalk mo kay wala lang.. dili tungod naai tuyo or naai favor. Pero basin pud bored lang sha or walay kastorya. i dont know sa iyang side. But i appreciate those times. Pero mao sad lagi, maabot dayon mig mga negative topics. And when people drags away happiness sa ilaha, it also drags away happiness sa people around them. And i felt that too.

Murag motaas na ni nga entry, no? and i dont want that, no?. So ako na ning putlon. Karon busy naman siya. And lately wala na pud mi naga chat. I thought pud nga nagachat lang sha if nega sha sa life. pero if happy sha and naa shay uyab or uyabuyab and all things go his way, wala ra pud baya sha nagaparamdam. Which is sabotable ra man.

Pero back to my micro-actions, stay away from negativity. So mao to, if magpalayo ko ug mga nega topics and nega people, less akong stress. Chos.

 

 

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when you try to smirk but fail so bad. hahaha

Dear Ate Charo: Mali ba ang mabuntis?

Dear Ate Charo,

Tawagin mo nalang ako sa pangalang Mary Ann.

Isa siyang Criminology student. Minahal ko siya. Siya ang aking naging buhay. Binigay ko ang lahat. Pero bakit kahit binigay ko ang lahat pati ang aking pagkababae, bakit sadyang may kulang? Pero kami ay nagmahalan. Kami kay masaya. Naniwala kami na mayroon walang hanggan.

WA nagdugay, nabuntis ko.
Sa sinugdanan Ate Charo kay okay ra. Niadto sha sa amo, gistorya akong mama ug papa, iya daw pangatawanan ang among anak. Studyante pa lang sha pero i believed him. I believed every single word, every single promise pero bakak diay tanan nga iyang giingon sa akoa.

Nakasulay ko nga maglakaw gikan fuente padong colon kay wala jud koi kwarta. Nakasulay ko nga maghilak nga ako ra isa. Nakasulay ko nga giadto ko ni Felmer sa dapit kung aha wala na ko kabalo sa akkong buhaton. Aha naman si Charlie?

ngano iya kong gipasagdan?

Nanganak ko nga ako ra ug akong prinsipyo ang nitabang nako, ate charo. Nanganak ko nga nagalook forward sa future nako ug sa akong anak. Nanganak ko ug nahimogso ang usa ka gwapang bata. I looked at myself at the mirror, nakaingon ko: kaning bata kay dili modako pareha nimo Charlie. Kaning bata kay akong atimanon, ug di jud ni nimo makita hangtod sa akong pagkamatay. Chos lang. nacarried away lang ko ato.

I had my family and friends nga naga tabang sa akoa. I am thankful sa tanang natabang nila sa akoa.

I worked very hard to raise my kid. Wala ko nakahuman ug college. Pero I tried my best working in every BPO para lang naai pangtostos sa araw arawa na buhay.

Karon, I am happy with my daughter Elijah. I can see myself in her. I can see that she is growing as a strong, intelligent woman.

Karon Ate Charo, we are living here in Australia. Me, Ellijah and my husband who accepted me for who I am. He accepted my past and loves my daughter like his very own. I am a happy wife and i couldn’t ask for more.

Nagmamahal,
Mary Ann

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Hindi Ka Nya Mahal.

Nagrereply lang sha, pero hindi talaga sha interested sayo.
It’s callled being nice. It’s called pakikitao.
Diba lately, nagmemessage ka first sa kanya?
Di mo ba gets, di ka nya naaalala.

Kaya tigilan mo nang pagpapantasya mo.
Kung friday, wag kang magexpect ng mga convo.
Wag kang malungkot at pilit mag-hold-on.
Hindi naman naging kayo.. Wala kayong ganun.

Hindi ka nya priority. Hindi ka niya naaalala.
Hindi sha kinikiliig. Walang gigil at saya.
Hindi ka niya mahal.. Bwesit, masakit diba?/
Wala kayong future. kaya gaga, masaktan ka.

Mabuti yang masakit para sana mataohan ka:
Hindi ka niya gusto. Not interested. Kaibigan lang talaga.
Sasaktan ka lang nya. Aasa ka. Bulag na maniniwala.
Luluha. Maglalasing. Pero walang kayo talaga.
-Babayng Pak-an

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Sides of the Story.

Though it’s very easy to jump into conclusions, dapat sometimes ato pud ithink nga there are always sides to each stories. And the side that you know is not always the right side.

Sauna i always jump into conclusions. I mean, it’s easy to joke around sa mga situations sa ubang tao, dapat kabalo lang jud ka molugar ug si kinsa imong mga pangsultian.

Say for example. Nganong ginabuhat man na niya ug balikbalik nga kabalo man na sha nga sayop na? Nganong ang ana man na iyang attitude? Nganong insensitive man kaayo na sya? So ana nalang, permi nalng kita mag-give way sa iyaha? Mean kaayo sha maong wala na shay friends. Nganong nagapatol man na siya niya nga di man jud na sha serious? and so many more.

Maybe it’s the easier option: to judge people and make up funny stories. But when you mature, actually dili na ka mocare kung unsa ang tan-aw sa mga tao nimo. Let them judge. They don’t pay your bills, so don’t let them irk you even a bit. People may talk about it for a week or so but eventually they will forget. Ang isa sa akong nalearn is, people around you really don’t care sa imong mga shortcomings and disappointments in life kay tungod they have their own nga mas ginacare nila. And do you care for theirs? No! kay you are busy with your life and your problems too.

Live life. Stay alive. Choose to be happy. Chos!

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Music: Used to Being Alone!

Chos.  I have this new ginahimo nga nagaplay ug kanang recommended sa youtube sa lifestick sa leo palace. Unya girecommend ang kanang Anna Wintour nga song ni Azealia Banks. And nothered jud ko sa iyang very hard nipples protruding. And naresearch nako nga bagong gawa pala yung mga hinaharap nya. The song was your standard beat sa mga dance clubs. I kinda had a liking to it (sa song ha, dili sa iyang nipples). So akong giresearch iyang life  music portfolio. And came across ani nga song.

Honestly, pagfirst nako paminaw kay wala lang.. wala ko giganahan.. pero ako gidownload japon. And while on my usual random paminaw sa akong player in shuffle, nigawas ni nga song and i was like.. love the beat.. love the lyrics. love the simplicity. Okay, anthem sa akong week. Good for jogging or basta random listen.. Pero the first line jud ang motatatak sa akoa… “How does it feel to treat me the way you do?” Para sa mga paasa nga mga giatay. lol kanang nimove on na gani ka.. magparamdam jud balik. gibatig kaanyag. walay kaikog. charet.

How does it feel?
(Stuck in my mind)
How does it feel to..
How does it feel?
(Stuck in my mind)
To treat me the way..
How does it feel
To treat me the way you?
How does it feel
To treat me the way you do?

Stuck in my mind
Stuck
Stuck in my mind

Oh, it took so long to get over ya
How do I prepare?
When I swore I’d never see you again?
And now you’re here
Looking as surreal as before
(Stuck, stuck in my mind)
Now that I am so used to being alone..
Oh, it took so long to get over ya
How do I prepare?
When I swore I’d never see you again?
And now you’re here
Looking as surreal as before
(Stuck, stuck in my mind)
Now that I am so used to being alone..

How does it feel?
How does it feel to..
How does it feel
To treat me the way?
How does it feel
To treat me the way you?
How does it feel
To treat me the way you do?